why do we only listen to people we pay?

met with the trainer yesterday for the first of my two free sessions. we didn't do that much, she took a bunch of measurements and had me run on the treadmill and found out how inflexible i am (her, ok stretch forward - i stretch forward - her, you can go now - me, i am - her, oh.) she also yelled at me because of my poor eating habits, which everyone has been saying but i just haven't been hearing. eating twice a day is bad. eating little things five times a day is good. so now i am on a routine of food, i have to drink more water (something my mom has been saying for YEARS) and wednesday we have our first session.

she is super nice. at first i was bummed i didn't get a big black guy (bc all the trainers at my gym are huge and gorgeous), but now i am glad since i feel way more comfortable with her. i will probably work with her up to the wedding, so four more weeks. even if i don't see the dream results i have in my head, i think this will be good for me in the long run. i really don't have much structure when i exercise and she can provide that.

11/7: turkey sandwich, chicken soup, sausage and pasta, apple and organic peanut butter (which is awesome, btw) / a bit of running, 45 minutes on the bike